Saturday, February 28, 2009

Quick thoughts on what I'm learning

  • The problem with being a visionary is that I will almost always find myself disappointed in the life realities around me.
  • Here are some keys I am learning to not allowing that disappointment lead to complete discouragement.....
  1. To trust God that He has a plan. Jeremiah 29:11
  2. To dwell in Him & allow Him to make me rest (Psalm 23) when I feel discouragement coming. To make sure above all else I am dwelling & resting in Him daily.
  3. To realize that the crop around me I see today is only the result of "yesterday's" seeds.... the seeds He is planting now won't be here until "tomorrow". I can't forget that. I must continue to see with my heart - not with my eyes - no matter how hard it is.
  • A problem with being passionate is that what is earth shattering ridiculously powerful, completely just a brand new concept to me... are only those things to *ME*. It's not going to be those things to everybody around me. We're all at different places, learning different things. I have to be okay with that.
  • A problem with being so passionate about God and how mighty He is... passionate about visions He gives me... having such strong faith in His power to heal every situation, every person and change this world.... Is that I will almost always be disappointed in myself that I didn't do enough with the faith & visions God gave me. I will probably always think - I didn't communicate them well enough. I didn't act on them enough. I didn't learn from them all I could have..... Because I believe if I had even communicated out in action & words 1/10th of what God planted in my heart - the world around me would be changed.
  • I just believe in what He wants to do that much. I believe He wants to do way way way way way more than I see --- so since He's perfect - I have to blame myself. and that's okay. It's part of the process. It's not like I doubt His love for me. I know He is pleased with my heart. I know I have His approval & love. It's that I recognize I have so far to go and I pray to Him to please help me put OUT so much more effectively what He pours in. I hate being a bottleneck.

5 comments:

thekingpin68 said...

'The problem with being a visionary is that I will almost always find myself disappointed in the life realities around me.'

I can relate to that, but God is the adult and relatively speaking I am the child. Living with and trusting in God in the present circumstances for me is often a major challenge.

'I just believe in what He wants to do that much. I believe He wants to do way way way way way more than I see --- so since He's perfect - I have to blame myself. and that's okay. It's part of the process. It's not like I doubt His love for me.'

I often do not know what God wants to do for certain with the bigger picture and so I try and do each day what I reason I should do and am being guided to do.

Thanks, Randi Jo, I have two new posts, March 1.

Russ:)

minnowspeaks said...

Randi--Until I got to the last paragraph I was saying to God--Wow such wisdom is so young a heart, Father, my sister is amazing! Then I read:"so since he's perfect-I have to blame myself..." Grrr--blame is the devil's advocate. Our Father does not blame you. He delights in you and dances over you with singing! And enough of this so far to go stuff (am I being harsh?) I get that we do not want to become prideful but the truth is that we have nothing to be prideful or disappointed in no matter how far or close our reasoning mind let's us think we are. He is continually present and where we are on the journey IS where He wants us. I understand how our passion and vision can sometimes cause us to be frustrated, disappointed, critical (I'm speaking about myself now) with the present and that is where I heard your wisdom rise to the surface in this post.
Bless you randi--you have surely blessed me!

Randi Jo :) said...

Thanks you all! :)

Minnow - I appreciate your honesty always even when it's "harsh"... mostly when it's harsh! :) it sharpens me.

To clarify:
I don't think that God blames me.... I think that He has a ton more mercy & patience for me than I have for myself.... but that's my point. Is that I recognize that I am so imperfect compared to His perfectness. That He wants to do so so so much and I wish I could pour OUT what He pours in. I truly believe my world around me would be totally chagned if I could just somehow allow Him to help me pour out all He pours in. Even 1/10th. I feel He pours in SOOO MUCH MORE than what I am able to pour out in words & actions. Anyway!! :) I think that's what I was trying to say. I know He's not 'mad' or that He 'blames' me --- it's just me recognizing that there's so much more to do in this journey to be able to experss out all He is pourign in! :)

love ya!!

Rebekah said...

It is so inspiring to read how God teaches you. I love hearing your passion in your words and seeing your heart in what you write. You are such a blessing sweet friend!

mandy said...

That thing about being passionate - it's so true. Even for an artist. But I really believe that we can pass the passion along - we can help others see the vision as well.
We are like their corrective lenses.