I don't know what I'm doing with this blog -but I figure it's time to write something before life gets crazy with baby Evelyn arriving so shortly!! :) We are less than 2 weeks away from meeting her face to face and we are soo excited! :)
God has been blessing us soo much the past weeks (always really right?) - the season of waiting and mourning even seems to be coming to an end, praise God!!! :) B accepted a new job offer, Raymond is doing so great and we are finally figuring out how to parent as a team (though some days we really feel we have NO clue what we're doing - we're making progress!) and the weather is finally nice so we can get OUT and Evelyn will be here so soon!! :) It's just a great season of life.
I've been learning a lot - and writing about it in my journal - but the majority of what is going on right now I'd say is, "never be lacking in zeal but keep your spiritual fervor serving the Lord. Be joyful in hope, patient in afflication, faithful in prayer. Share with God's people who are in need. Practice hospitality." Romans 12:11-13 and that's as simple as I hear Him keeping it for me.
Just start where you are Randi Jo. and don't lose your zeal and that spiritual fervor that He has blessed you with. It's not a life shattering huge revelation He is asking me to soak in. I truly believe He is asking me to truly just start LIVING and stop WAITING right where I am - exactly as I am right now. Take the seeds that He has planted and is growing and do with them what I can right now. "Small" acts and steps are many times HUGE acts and steps. I believe so many times the world needs more people willing to do the small.
So that's where I am. Seize the day type message.... learning to truly be fully alive NOW while at the same time never losing the visions He has planted in our hearts.
Right now I'm a wife, a mom, a friend, a sister, a daughter, an aunt. I am asking Him to continue to open up my eyes to who He wants me to reach out to. He has blessed me with some GREAT new relationships and helped me stop living so 'surfacy' (facebook!) and truly learn to BE the change I want to see.
Today at the park I realized again how sensitive I am.... and am learning always how to have grace for others that maybe don't get that. Many times people say things without knowing the wounds we have or weights we carry and the devil knows that and will twist any words to make us heap more on our back and I really recognized that today. I recognized his scheme for what it was and simply talked to God about it right then and acknowledged I would not let him steal my joy. He would love nothing better than to bring fear/guilt to this time of joy and blessing and I will not allow it is. I'm sure other mommies feel the same way and carry around their own wounds and I realize that you can never over-encourage a fellow mommy. I am in a great place to share that gift of encouragement and help others find ways to have grace for themselves and for their children. I am free to be me... even if I am a sensitive, sometimes overthinking, child-focused mommy who doesn't want to be exactly like others. I don't like to agree on everything with my friends and I will live in that freedom and look for others who desire the same. Thank you God for that freedom and strength and for these lessons.
Help me continue to walk in your FREEDOM, in your GRACE and never be lacking in zeal God. Help me reach out to those around me and be content with where I am right now yet always joyful in HOPE for what is to come! :)
God you are so good!!!! :) THANK YOU FOR THIS SEASON!!!! I am just blown away at how different life is going to be than it was last year this time... or even last MONTH. Praise God for CHANGE, for breakthroughs, for the seasons of life we go through! Out of the ashes is rising beauty once again, THANK YOU GOD for this beauty. Thank you for being with me through the process of these past years and never giving up! Thank you for the lessons you're teaching me and most of all for the RELATIONSHIP you are allowing me to have with you.