Tuesday, November 25, 2008
Although I am rescued and don't even need to think anymore about what has been going on --- I do want to write about what has been happening. I have really been under attack. When the devil wants to get in... he always seems to attack our marriage first. and I know why. I absolutely believe that marriage is such a huge threat to the enemy. It is the most sacred relationship we have on earth and when Brandon & I are unified and both growing in Christ --- I literally feel so protected, covered, loved, have so much faith and strength. It's like nothing can stop us when we're our solid chord of three. When we are spiritually intimate --- our intimacy in all areas is so much more full and beautiful and satisfying. It will never cease to amaze me what a beautiful relationship marriage is and I completely see why it's a representation of Jesus relationship with the church. When we believe in each other - we feel there is nothing God can not do with us, through us! It's just such an awesome testimony to me that God can take two completely opposite & different people and be able to work in them & through them to love each other despite our failings.. be able to work through conflicts and lift each other up, focusing on the good in each other and taking the bad with the good. Being totally committed. Committed to forgive as I said in my vows. For Brandon to be able to see and know all my junk but love me anyway --- wow that's powerful.
Brandon is absolutely the best tool that God has shown me to show love, mercy, patience, unconditional love, commitment.... yet I know that this works in both ways. He isn't perfect nor am I and we will not always be christlike for each other. We can also be the devil to each other. We can tear each other down.... discourage... and make each other feel so inferior & unworthy.
It seems to me throughout our years together one is always up and one is always down. In my moments or seasons of dryness - of just spiritual burden... Brandon always seems to be at his best times. Full of faith & so close to God. and I know God does that for a reason. That is why the chord of 3 is so powerful. (Ecclesiates 4:12) We are strong despite one's moments of weakness.
I started pouring out everything on my heart last night and Brandon was discerning enough to know the devil was planting some horrible seeds in me. He could have rebuked my lack of faith, my complaining attitude.... but he recognized what I needed and he loved me like God wanted him to. Brandon had a 15 hour work day yesterday!!!!!!! but he dropped everything he was working on (after 15 hours away from the house) and came and took me in his arms and knelt before the Lord asking Him to rescue me. I could do nothing but cry. I felt God's love through Brandon's arms, through his words and tender heart. I was so thankful that Brandon had been in the Word so much and so close to God recently. I really needed him. (Ecclesiates 4:11). He saw I was battling and that I needed somebody to come to me and intercede for me. He asked for the Comforter to come and speak for me and to blanket me with peace & comfort and it was one of the most beautiful moments of our marriage.
I had not shed tears like that in so long and boy did it feel good. When I am going through a spiritual battle and dry season for so long --- I should be able to recognize it right away (but I don't) because I have no tears during those seasons. I am just unable to cry. It's like my heart is literally hard and though I feel like I'm crying inside - they don't come (which is SO unlike me - I'm such a crier!)... so to release all of this last night was so good.
In moments like this - when God finds me and rescues me and brings me back into the light --- it's a very powerful moment. I can physically feel myself being lifted out of darkness. It's like I find myself again. and my heart feels like, "where have I been all this time".... really. where do I go? and then the remorse I feel for how I've acted toward God & Brandon & those around me. It reminds me of that scene from Steel Magnolias when Julia Roberts character has a diabetic attack and then when she awakens out of it and finds herself again - she all of a sudden realized how she acted when she lost herself. Yet despite all that remorse I feel in those times, He washes all that away when I acknowledge my errors, confess them and turn from it.
when you get married - you are no longer your own flesh.... the 2 of you together are one flesh. Therefore, as Brandon told me --- when we only go to God separately - we are only 1/2 of us praying. We had not been praying together and it was affecting all areas - but last night as we prayed and called out to God together - I felt so complete again. and we thought --- man what happened? How did we get so off track? The devil is so sneaky - it's such a gradual thing to separate and drift apart - we didn't even notice.
I want to write down what the devil had been saying to me - so when he says it again, I will hopefully recognize it for what it is next time:
I am not trying hard enough. I doubt I'll ever be used for God like He wants to use me. What value is even in my days? What difference does my life even make? I'm totally average and my talents and gifts are going to go to waste. I may go to heaven and God might be totally disappointed in my entire life. Am I doing all I should right now? What am I not doing that I should be? Am I supposed to be using my skills differently? am I not doing enough? or maybe it's opposite - maybe I'm trying to do too much and not giving enough time to brandon & raymond. maybe I'm sinning because I'm not being content to "just" be a mom & wife. Those are the roles I have right now - and I'm doing a miserable job even in those roles. (then he starts listing all the things in my mind I should be doing differently with Raymond... what I'm not doing good enough.. what he's not doing good enough and all the cruel things people to say to me that make me feel guilt that I'm not a good enough mother and make me doubt myself) or maybe I AM supposed to "just" be a mom & wife right now and I'm ruining it all ---will this time as mom & wife pass me by so fast and I'll regret never truly appreciating this time with Raymond & Brandon? I really am a horrible mom & wife. I'm failing.
and when I started to share some of these doubts.... Brandon knew enough to help me.
oh God I can't thank you enough for your patience with me. Thank you so much God for those throughout my life that help get me out of these pits. I absoultely know that my childlike naive faith for you & your Body and my love and my heart for you is such a threat to the enemy and he is going to do what he can to keep me down... but God I need help. I know in my heart that he has no power -- why do I continue to let him in? Please God guard me. Guard my heart. Keep me focused on your words.... because you have always lifted me up. You don't put thoughts like that in my mind. You have always gently loved me. You have always been there no matter how many times I've turned away. Please God make your voice so clear that I don't even hear any others. Keep me in your light God. help me recognize the devil's tricks right away and rebuke them.
Thank you God for never giving up on me. Thank you for my wonderfully complex & challenging & rewarding & beautiful marriage. It's so deep and not at all fake. We are so authentic with each other - never holding anything back and although it causes pain..... it's so beautiful to be so vulnerable. Thanks for all you've poured into Brandon to prepare him for just those moments last night.
Help me be the woman you designed me to be God.
Monday, November 17, 2008
Nurturing a Quiet Soul
by Jon Walker
But I have stilled and quieted my soul; like a weaned child with its mother, like a weaned child is my soul within me. Psalm 131:2 (NIV)
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My older sister, Lori Hensley, a very serious prayer warrior, once taught me to meditate on Psalm 131 to help me move toward God’s peace that passes all understanding:
We keep our hearts humble. This doesn’t mean we have a low opinion of ourselves. A humble heart means we know our position in Christ, and so we stop being responsible for the things of which we were never responsible. This frees us to live like God intended and allows us to make uncluttered choices that will move us closer to God.
We show the maturity of a weaned child. The nursing child demands attention now, but the weaned child trusts and is content to wait. We quietly center ourselves on God, peacefully, without agitation and anxiety, and trust God is actively supporting us.
We hope in the Lord with confident expectation. Truth says God will answer our prayers; he will respond to our needs; he will pave the path before us now and forever (Psalm 18:36).
I often find myself acting like an infant, a child of God not yet weaned. I want what *I* want.... and I want it NOW. and I'm not talking about material wants. I'm talking about spiritual wants. The plans I have for my life. I want to be used a certain way by Him... in a certain time. I want my skills to be used NOW rather than later. I want to make a difference in this certain place, at this certain time....
I know He has put dreams in my heart for a reason --- but there's a real problem when that dream becomes my focus. Why can't I learn this lesson? Why every few months do I have a post like this? I need to really and truly get over this cycle. I notice the pattern every time - I begin to see how others are used, I begin to look at other's ministries and see how they are doing things.... even though my heart tells me, "comparison is the root of all inferiority" --- I do lose focus and look at those around me. I begin to feel like *I* am ready for something to happen, that I'm SO ready to be used in a certain way... that I must just not be pushing hard enough.... so I start trying to take matters into my own hands instead of recognizing that my job is to trust, to wait, to be still and know that HE is God and I am not. Yes, there are times we must push forward, take leaps of faith, and take action to move closer --- but He will show us when those times are upon us. He does not want me to have anxiety or worry over missing any boat. He doesn't want me to fear disappointing Him.
Bottom line is that if I am with Him - then He will take me where I'm supposed to go. If He is in me and I am in Him, then obviously there is no possible way His plans for me will not be fulfilled.
I should focus a lot more on being with Him, on allowing Him to live in me.... then trying to DO for Him.
He again is reminding me of this lesson. I am so glad He reminds me of these lessons now to protect me from hurt later. I want so badly to learn this lesson now.... for if I don't --- one day I will wake up and realize that in all my desire & action & constant striving to DO for Him... I totally missed out on being with Him.
God please show me when to be Mary Randi and when to be Martha Randi. Please God help me learn this lesson once and for all to my core. Soothe my worries, cover my concerns with your assurance that YOU have the plans and I don't need to (Jer 29:11).... don't allow my personality weaknesses to get in the way of my personality strengths.
Help me God in my walk with you. Help me to grow up and out of his newborn stage of worry, impatience, discouragement. Help me to have discipline to have time of solitude with you daily. Remind me again how to "just be" with you. I love you father God. I know that you are telling me that if I want to move forward --- it's time to take some steps back from life and run to you. Help me have confident expectation in your plans for me God. Help me be content to wait...
Wednesday, November 12, 2008
I know myself, and I know how imperfect I have been in relationships with others. I have sinful moments of selfishness & let frustration & discouragement take over when dealing with individuals. Sometimes I do assume the worst in others without giving them the benefit of the doubt. In my past, I have actually had some really deep issues with a few relationships in The Body (LBF, if you read this... I love you sister. I pray that someday God can bring restoration into our relationship and fill us up with love for each other). I have not shown grace & mercy to others when needed. I am impatient and want to change others, rather than letting the Spirit do His work. More times than I want to think about, I have taken my eyes of God therefore leaving room for the devil to plant seeds in my heart which carried over into my relationships which resulted in harsh words, tones & attitudes.
BUT despite my own failings, I absolutely am determined to do whatever I can to have strong and healthy relations in the Body. I don't believe there's a higher calling for us as The Body but to love each other. To focus on the good in each other. To love The Body as a whole and to love the individual parts of the Body we are in contact with. That's the testimony we should be showing to others outside of the Body who see enough conflict, hatred, animosity, judgement, disunity and exclusivity in the world all around us.
Love doesn't come in the form of perfect peace & harmony & smily hugs at all times. It comes in the form of disagreements, butting heads & conflicting.... yet growing closer somehow in the long term because of our desire to not give up on the relationships. It comes in the form of acceptance of people very different from us. Growing stronger together because of our unification in Christ. It comes in the form of seeing imperfections in each other yet loving each other exactly as we are. It comes in the form of enough faith in the transforming power of the Spirit to do His work and to just be patient while He does His thing. Having faith for each other when we are weak. Lifting each other up when we're discouraged. Praying for each other.
Love for The Body as an entity comes in the same forms. Patience. Never judging another part of The Body's spiritual maturity by whatever criteria or factors we choose. Focusing on the good in each other. Praying for each other. Believing in The Body as a whole. Believing in God that He will transform and mold us. Conflicting in different areas of The Body yet getting over it somehow. Focusing on our unification in Christ. Seeing imperfections in each other yet loving each other exactly as we are.
My spiritual mentor to this day although she is no longer with us, is my grandma, who passed on in May 2007. She was the one who showed me never to give up on The Body. Never to stop attending church in some form. She went through a heck of a lot in her years with The Body. She saw a lot of stuff in the Body I pray I never see --- but she never gave up on it.
God please help people who aren't part of The Body see how much we love each other. Help us exude patience, mercy, love, and acceptance. I desire so strongly for my life to glorify God by living up to the 2 greatest commandments we are to follow:
'Love the Lord your God with all your heart and with all your soul and with all your mind.' This is the first and greatest commandment. And the second is like it: 'Love your neighbor as yourself.' Matthew 22:37-39
Above all, love each other deeply, because love covers over a multitude of sins. I Peter 4:8
We ought always to thank God for you, brothers, and rightly so, because your faith is growing more and more, and the love every one of you has for each other is increasing. 2 Thes 1:3
Hold them in the highest regard in love because of their work. Live in peace with each other. I Thes 5:13
Now about brotherly love we do not need to write to you, for you yourselves have been taught by God to love each other. I Thes 4:9
May the Lord make your love increase and overflow for each other and for everyone else, just as ours does for you. I Thes 3:12
I am not commanding you, but I want to test the sincerity of your love by comparing it with the earnestness of others. 2 Cor 8:8
The commandments, "Do not commit adultery," "Do not murder," "Do not steal," "Do not covet," and whatever other commandment there may be, are summed up in this one rule: "Love your neighbor as yourself." Romans 13:9
This is my command: Love each other John 15:17
My command is this: Love each other as I have loved you. John 15:12
Love and faithfulness meet together; righteousness and peace kiss each other. Psalm 85:10
I truly believe the best antecdote when we find ourselves lacking love for The Body is time away in solitude with God. Asking Him to fill us back up with love for each other. Asking Him to please step in the gap for us and be the bridge to others. Usually when we talk about "building a bridge" we're talking about people in vs. people out of The Body -- but we need bridges within the Body!
Remember we are not connected to God through The Body. We are connected to The Body through God.
I believe when we are full of animosity toward any people or person, we should pour out our hearts and frustrations and negatives to Him and ask Him to somehow fill us with love & patience & peace & mercy & faith. Not to ignore our frustrations, but to talk to Him first and above all... about the issues you are facing to find out if you're supposed to act on what you're seeing or simply allow Him to do His work and take it in as information for a later time. Sometimes in rare cases He will ask us to act... but many times He will ask us to be patient, pray, focus on the good we see and to be the example.
As 2 people in The Body move closer to God, they are automatically drawn closer to each other.... for more thoughts on that idea, there's some thoughts in the middle paragraph on this post....
God please fill me with love for those that hurt me. For those I am impatient with. For those I wish to see changed now rather than later. Please fill up the hearts of those that I have hurt. Please God ease my discouragement over things I see wrong. Help me trust you that you're at work. Please God help us as a Body cling tighter. Help us glorify you in a world full of everything but love, acceptance & unity. Help us recognize how much power there is in unity and that Christ is the ultimate unifier. May people look at us and see a Body they would want to be apart of because whether we like it or not & whether we claim it or not, as followers of Christ, we are all a family. I pray that none of my friends will get discouraged enough to the point of giving up.
photo by MomMom
Saturday, November 8, 2008
I'm pretty sure it's just ingrained in my personality to love change. Weird enough, I thrive on routine but I love change. I love organization but I just feel the need for constant change... the organization I guess is the melancholy side and the need for constant change is the driver side (from Personality Plus -- love that book).
It seems to me, when people feel the need for change, they always start on the outside. This is true individually and corporately in any field. Marketers try to change the advertisements or packaging.... churches try to change the marketing material & look of the church... people get new hairstyles, start exercising more or buy new clothes...
but the Bible teaches us differently. I will put this on an individual level but really on my heart right now is the corporate level.
It seems to me that if God is stirring us that it's time to change - and we go out and cut and dye our hair - we have just totally missed His point and we're faking ourselves out. Jesus taught us to be careful of people & organizations that do this (like the Pharisees in Matthew). But, when we allow Him to change us inside... then the outward follows. The first thing to prosper should always be inside - the unseen.
I think this is a great lesson for any person or any organization. If you feel the need for change - BE the change you want to see by allowing the indwelling of the Holy Spirit to re-train your brain, your heart, your thoughts... which will change your habits.. which will change your actions... which will change your life.
There's never a successful transformation inside that doesn't somehow show itself on the outside. BUT if you just make changes on the outside (hoping the inside will follow), that never changes the inside long term. And you will be headed down an unsatisfying path of wander and disappointment.
I truly believe we all need to focus on the inside change above all else --- rather than trying to convince others with our appearances we are changed --- show them by our lives, allowing Him to change us to be the change we want to see in the world.
Thursday, November 6, 2008
My heart was so heavy in the confusion of figuring out how to uphold the morality I know is True yet to always be loving, merciful and humble. Is it even possible? or should morality just not be discussed at all? Only shown by example? Because Jesus came and fulfilled the 'law' - should we not talk about it at ALL and ONLY talk about the love & freedom & peace Jesus brings!? Does having mercy & love mean that you don't talk about righteousness or truth because it points out brokenness in others?
Well after a pretty healthy break down.... I asked God to please clear up this confusion. To grow my moral backbone. I told Him that I was willing to come face to face with my sin in this area and I wanted Him to tell me if I had been going about this all wrong and wasn't focusing on Him enough. And He answered me!!! He told me to look at the examples of His first disciples, the truths of the early church. So I flipped to Acts & Romans thinking it would be a good place to start - to figure out what Luke & Paul talked about. Did they talk only of Jesus love and forgiveness of sins through faith in Him, or did they talk about immorality, right and wrong, repentance. After pouring through it and reading it as if I was reading it for the first time, my eyes were so open, the Light HURT them!
Jesus & Morality
Jesus did not abolish morality though all sins and immorality are now forgiveable through faith in Him! He took away eternal consequences of our sins, but sin very much has natural consequences and He very much wants us out of gratitude to allow Him to change us through His Word and through time with Him --- to become more like Him every day. Not for us to put on appearances or go through rituals or routines to try to change ourselves... but to allow Him to flow through us and do His transforming work! Paul is very clear that there are fruits of the Spirit and there are fruits of the flesh. God clearly desires us to have fruits of the Spirit and be examples for others of what the Spirit can do!
We are to repent of making idols out of everything in our worldly lives and turn to God and allow Him to change us. If we do not, He will "give us over to the sinful desires of our hearts". Please go read and Romans 1:24-32 and Romans 2:5-11. Don't you see this in America!?
We allow Him to change us and to strive for righteousness not to earn His favor or eternal life--- Jesus took care of that.... but out of gratitude for all He's done and because if we don't, sin will entangle and detour us from the plan He has for us. (Yes He can and will work out ALL things for our good (Romans 8:28) --- but what blessings is He having to hold back or hold off because of us following our own will and not His?).
Morality talked about in the Body
After reading Acts & Romans I absolutely know that morality/God's standard through the Word of God MUST be talked about amongst the Body. Acts & Romans were written (I believe?) to new believers and existing churches ---- and morality & repentance from sins was very much talked about. NOT to condemn but to point out sin. The Word is very clear that we are not to condemn.... but it's very clear we are to discern right and wrong. We are called to encourage each other & to help others steer away from immorality. To help people understand their brokenness. I believe that there's a time and place and way to do this and it's our job to learn how to listen to the Spirit when to confront issues and when to just listen to our hurting brothers & sisters. I truly believe relationships must be built before 'sharpening' comes --- because people don't care what you know until they know you care. But, when asked directly, no matter if there's a strong relatoniship there or not -- we should answer. Sometimes it's more important to be kind than right when building relationships.... but it's never okay to be kind and compromise truth.
We know that too many for too long have been prideful, condemning & judgemental with the excuse of trying to promote morality and point out brokenness.... but we can change that. We don't have to answer for what they have done wrong --- we do have to answer for what WE do. Just because many have done wrong while trying to stick up for morality, doesn't mean we just don't even try at all!
On another note... I just wanted to remind myself that we all will fail and will get in the way of the Spirit transforming us... but we don't have to be embarassed or ashamed when we fail... we don't have to try to cover up and hide all our sin blemishes. People have to see us humble and broken but seeking out knowledge, seeking out the truth and allowing the Spirit to change us to become more righteous daily. Just because we won't get a touchdown every time - doesn't mean we don't try for a first down. Keep on trying for first downs and to get toward that end zone. People have to see us wholeheartedly seeking to follow this Lamp unto our feet, His Word.
So my point is......
God would never allow us to see the sin & brokenness in others to condemn, judge or make them feel ashamed.... but to sharpen each other! To help pull people closer to God.
Our role with non believers
As far as our interactions with non-believers.....I really believe talking about Jesus' love and acceptance & leading by example should be our primary focus. Acts & Romans were written to new believers & churches that were already forming, but not meant for non believers..... Paul makes it very clear that we should, "not make it difficult for the Gentiles who are turning to God". Strapping them down with a lot of "do nots"....
I really don't believe we need to point out non believer's sins to them. They are leading that lifestyle, following that sin because they are hurting and looking to fill a void. I absolutely believe that every human being deep down has that core belief that they are supposed to be something they are not. That there is a standard out there that they haven't lived up to. That they were designed to be 'good' but have fallen. I think it's a universal understanding that we all need a Savior.
If asked directly, should we give our viewpoints on moral issues? Absolutely. We should give the viewpoint of the Bible.... but more often than not people already know what we're against as christians.... we need to show them who is FOR them! The one and only Savior who loves them exactly as they are!!
If morality isn't talked about... if we're afraid to speak about our sins & our brokenness... if we no longer talk about the standard He laid out.... there will be confusion & distortion and we won't even know what sin is anymore. We will think we're "ok "and we will strive to do things to convince us we are "good" and "okay".
If people don't know they are sinning....if there is no absolute right and wrong.... then they won't know they need a Savior!
This is what the devil is trying to do. This is what people who don't like our Savior are trying to do..... little by little make people believe that either a) they are not broken or b) that they can be fixed and satisfactorily filled with earthly things. Trying to convince others that being a "good person" is good enough. (The fact that there is a standard to go by to see if somebody is "good" or not is proof there is an underlying morality we are all aware of.) Convincing them that void can be filled with whatever earthly thing this person is trying to promote.... but it's not the Truth.
We are called to be the salt of the earth. The moral flavoring. Allowing the Spirit to transform us so we can be an example.... standing up for what is right with our voices & our lives, so that others will understand how far off we are from God and being 'right' with Him. So people can realize ALL have failed. The Bible tells us ALL are unrighteous.
What happens when salt gets watered down? It disintegrates... the water becomes salty but it's dilluted and not near as powerful.... and over time, the more and more water is added each generation... the farther away we are from recognizing our need for a Savior. Look at how watered down we are from the early church leaders......
God please help me be the salt you want me to be. Help me have a backbone. Help me realize that you allow us to see sin in others NOT to condemn, but to recognize it for what it is --- a symptom of our deep need for our Savior. I believe this Word of God to be Truth God. I believe everything it says. I am willing to be called rigid, elementary, foolish. I know that I can't be good or right on my own God and you are my Savior! Help me spread your love God.
Help me spread your message of HOPE through Jesus Christ & CHANGE through the Holy Spirit!!!!
Psalm 25:3, Psalm 25:5, Psalm 25:21, Psalm 31:24, Psalm 33:20, Psalm 39:7, Psalm 42:11, Psalm 62:5, Psalm 119:114, Isaiah 40:31, Romans 5:4, Romans 8:24,
II Corinthians 3:18, Romans 12:2, Phillipians 3:21
Who's YOUR Savior!?
Tuesday, November 4, 2008
Psalm 46:1,10-11 NLT
4 Then will I go to the altar of God, to God, my joy and my delight.
5 Why are you downcast, O my soul? Why so disturbed within me?
Love the Lord your God with all your heart and with all your soul and with all your mind. This is the first and greatest commandment. And the second is like it: Love your neighbor as yourself. All the Law and the Prophets hang on these two commandments
If we do these things, we will be honoring the 10 Commandments as well...
The 10 Commandments:
(1) “You shall have no other gods before me.” This command is against worshipping any god other than the one true God. All other gods are false gods.
(2) “You shall not make for yourself an idol in the form of anything in heaven above or on the earth beneath or in the waters below. You shall not bow down to them or worship them; for I, the LORD your God, am a jealous God, punishing the children for the sin of the fathers to the third and fourth generation of those who hate me, but showing love to a thousand generations of those who love me and keep my commandments.” This command is against making a idol, a visible representation of God. There is no image we can create that can accurately portray God. To make an idol represent God is to worship a false god.
(3) “You shall not misuse the name of the LORD your God, for the LORD will not hold anyone guiltless who misuses His name.” This is a command against taking the name of the Lord in vain. We are not to treat God’s name lightly. We are to show reverence to God by only mentioning Him in respectful and honoring ways.
(4) “Remember the Sabbath day by keeping it holy. Six days you shall labor and do all your work, but the seventh day is a Sabbath to the LORD your God. On it you shall not do any work, neither you, nor your son or daughter, nor your manservant or maidservant, nor your animals, nor the alien within your gates. For in six days the LORD made the heavens and the earth, the sea, and all that is in them, but he rested on the seventh day. Therefore the LORD blessed the Sabbath day and made it holy.” This is a command to set aside the Sabbath (Saturday, the last day of the week) as a day of rest dedicated to the Lord.
(5) “Honor your father and your mother, so that you may live long in the land the LORD your God is giving you.” This is a command to always treat our parents with honor and respect.
(6) “You shall not murder.” This is a command against the premeditated murder of another human being.
(7) “You shall not commit adultery.” This is a command against have sexual relations with anyone other than your spouse.
(8) “You shall not steal.” This is a command against taking anything that does not belong to us without the permission of the person to whom it belongs.
(9) “You shall not give false testimony against your neighbor.” This is a command against testifying against another person falsely. It is essentially a command against lying.
(10) “You shall not covet your neighbor's house. You shall not covet your neighbor's wife, or his manservant or maidservant, his ox or donkey, or anything that belongs to your neighbor.” This is a command against desiring anything that does not belong to you. Coveting can lead to breaking one of the commandments listed above: murder, adultery, and theft. If it is wrong to do something, it is wrong to desire to do that same something.
Taken from gotquestions.org
9 of these 10 commandments (all but the sabbath) were listed in the New Testament as well as the Old.
Number 10 is really the one piercing my heart tonight as I listen to people responding to the economic state we're in right now.... as I listen to people's reactions to the different promises slathered all over the media propaganda machine. Whoever gets elected is going to have a heck of a time fulfilling their promises.
My question is --- who will the politicians blame next when they can't give the people everything they want? Who is the next scapegoat for a machine based on coveting, hatred & division?
It appears we will soon find out.
God bless us,
Sunday, November 2, 2008
God I recognize Jesus didn't come to create political peace.... in fact many in His time were not willing to recognize Him as the Messiah because they were expecting a political leader who would overthrow governments and change the world order we see.... which He did not (on the surface). He was a humble servant. A man crucified by His own people whose power is all but unseen in this world.... I know you did so much more than what we can see with our eyes.
I know that this world or any country or people will not become acceptable to you or righteous in any way except through Jesus. I recognize that America is as faulty as other countries and that this world will only get worse - spiritually and morally....
BUT GOD -- I feel SO thankful to be an American. I have felt so blessed to be have all the freedoms we do and I believe we have done more good in the world than any other nation because we have been ruled under you.... but that's changing... many are turning from you... they don't like how offensive your Truth is....
God I know that we, as the temples of Jesus on this earth have the capability through you to spread so much good in our homes, families, communities, governments.
and I want so badly to have a godly man in office. I have such a strong desire to want a political overthrow of the insiders who don't know you... I want your Truth to be the prevailing 'law' in our country....
but God no matter what --- help me recognize what you did when you came. and help me realize my calling... which does not change no matter who is in office. Help me continue to do good in my home, in my church and in my community because of who is in me. Help me continue to spread your Good News.
Maybe this is a wake-up call for we have become too comfortable.
Saturday, November 1, 2008
I have such a passion for the elderly and my parents really instilled in me a respect for anybody that is an elder. and I really believe in the power of mentors. of having an example to look up to. accountability partners. Somebody who has gone ahead and been through life's lessons already that can pass on their wisdom, experience and just encouragement. BWW taught us that. I don't think the church stresses mentoring enough. Yeah we have a preacher, who often is very out of reach to us. We have small groups which are great and what life is all about - journeying together... but often small groups are people in the same socioeconomic/demographic/whatever group and we're at the same place in the journey. The Bible calls us to have mentors. I don't know the verses right now, but I know it commands us younger women to learn from the older and for the older to teach and give of their lives & hearts as well. Right?
Why don't churches stress intergenerational relationships more? Because we are so focused on reaching the youth we forget about the elderly? ouch.
Why don't we stress the need for mentors? That's how Jesus worked didn't He? In people's hearts & homes. Starting with 12 men and focusing intimately with 3 (?). It's all about real, intimate, personal, one on one relationships with others right? Yes he did teach to crowds as well and in synagogues but He did always make sure to pull his disciples aside and have personal and close interaction with them. I really believe so many have missed that part. Churches are known for their teaching/preaching to groups... but not so much about intimate close authentic relationships. Letting people into our lives outside of Sunday mornings. The Body needs to cling together tighter! Yes we create little islands, but we create island of strangers many times!! Our communities although are islands from the greater community (which isn't a good thing either) are not near as authentic, strong and healthy as they could be.... but I do see that changing, thank God!
The fact that churches don't stress intergenerational contact/relationship/mentoring is a perfect example of how messed up our priorities are. We value popular young preachers over the elderly couple in the pew behind us. We value missionaries over stay at home moms. We value famous worship leaders over the little old lady who helped form & build our church body ___ years ago. God calls us to a different standard of valuing each other. For more on this, see this post.
Our mobility as a people has increased so much that people aren't around their extended families anymore. We aren't staying in the same town we grew up in, going to the same church for __ years. I really believe this leaves a huge hole in our lives. Our city is a perfect example of this. Wilmington is such a transition city. With the colleges, the beach, the retirement folk... there are so many people who have left their families to be here.
When I moved away from my parents & grandma, I really felt that hole that grandma & mom & dad filled. I knew that I couldn't find anybody to replace that hole fully..... but I knew I had to find SOMEBODY to sort of step in that place. I was getting real discouraged. I felt like I had been reaching out to couples so many times at church and even outside of our church body - but somehow I wasn't being clear enough and nobody realized I was asking (begging?) somebody to invite me into their lives & hearts. I felt ignored and that I was a nuisance because so many of the older folk did have families around and just 'stuff' going on. Imagine that! The older folk were busier than we were! :) So I just started praying for God to bring them to me - instead of trying to force myself into other's lives.
And... God answered! It took quite a while - probably time to prepare us and to prepare them, but we have met 2 couples in the past few months that are older and have been having the same things laid on their heart. AND also Brandon re-started going to Mentoring Men for the Master and is that a direct anwwer to prayer or what!?!? We were able to go out to eat with Dr Bennett 2 nights ago and more than once I just started crying - I don't know why I cry so much haha.... but mostly just out of joy because I felt God telling me that night, "see Randi. you just have to be patient. I know what I'm doing. Why do you worry so much? Why do you get so frustrated?" ... silly randi :)
Anyway - we are SOO excited for these couples we met and for MMM. I really was so touched by Dr. Bennett and just wanted to keep bear-hugging him which I did at least once. God is so good!
I am going to be working with one of the ladies and trying to help pull together even more couples. I'll get asking among my peers who is looking and she'll be asking among hers and we'll "hook them up". :) God is sooo good!
Thank you God for what you're doing. I can really feel you at work. I know you have a plan. I know that you're going to use us. I am so thankful for all you are pouring into us. Continue to use us God we're so willing!